Joy

I’ve read that that stages of grief are: denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. I have gone through all of these with regards to fibromyalgia. For someone without fibo, it might sound weird to go through the stages of grief, but I did really grieve for the life that I used to have.

I can honestly say I have reached the stage of acceptance now, but that isn’t to say I don’t have bad days. The last couple days have been bad, but today I had a reminder that life is good and I should get off my high horse and stop feeling sorry for myself! This came to me because a good friend received something today that they had waited a long time for. It made me realize in a personal way (because of course I knew this intellectually before) that there are so many other people out there who face long term disappointments and setbacks with their various trials. But, as they say, good things come to those who wait. We may not get exactly what we want, when we want it, but the Lord has a plan for us and maybe we should just trust in that.
And when this came to me, I felt joy! Of course my life is taking a different turn then I wanted it to, but that doesn’t mean that my life is over, that doesn’t mean I am doomed to a lifetime of suffering. It means that I have something extra to deal with and that makes things more difficult, but I think that everybody had something like that in their life, don’t you?
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2 thoughts on “Joy

  1. I related to this post more than you will ever know. I don't have fibro but I have a horrible back (and 2 surgeries later) which leaves me with chronic pain. I am slowly learning to live with it. On top of that, we desperately want to have a child but between my back and our infertility.. it is always a battle. I definitely have been going through the grieving process over all this.. it seems like it's a never ending roller coaster ride. You have had an impact on my life already with this one simple post. Thank you for making me not feel so alone in my pain.

  2. I'm glad that I could help Erin, sometimes I wonder if I am just talking to myself, so I really appreciate your comment. I'm sorry for everything you are going through, you're definitely not alone though. It sucks about your back and infertility, though it is nice for me to hear that I'm not the only one going through health challenges, especially at the age of 27!

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