I have that line from Finding Nemo in my head, “just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming”(see the clip HERE if you’d like). I just keep putting one foot in front of the other, I keep going and going and keep hoping I’ll have the energy to “keep swimming.” Thank goodness a friend of mine today was inspired to invite my daughter over to play, it saved me.
Tomorrow I have a follow up appointment with my new fibro doctor to discuss my tests results. I am on pins and needles waiting to hear what she has to say. She had me tested for a battery of tests, and I was sure nothing would come up (because my blood work is always perfect). Much to my surprise, when I checked my lab results (the doctor leaves a message on a machine system) she said I tested positive for Lyme disease, and my levels indicated chronic fatigue and chronic mono. WHAT? I was shocked. So I’m dying to hear what she has to say about that! Talk about messing with my mind, apparently it is possible I could have Lyme disease, but the tests are so unreliable who knows. And if I do have Lyme disease, it is possible the fibro and mono are results of the Lyme, which means, in theory of course, they could eventually go away. But, I feel these tests results have led me down a dangerous road that leads to hope. I’m afraid to hope, because my hopes have been dashed so many times. I could really use some positive answers right now though, because I have been feeling worse than ever lately. Tomorrow will be an interesting day.