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Sorrow is quiet and hidden

Most of the time I feel at peace with the turn my life has taken, but some days I just feel sorrow. We all have bad days no matter how our lives are going, but my bad days are a little different in that I feel sorrowful. I miss my old life. I hate missing out on everything everyone else gets to do. I just want to be normal. I’m tired of being the only one with limitations and I’m tired of people trying to convince me that my health is a mind over matter kind of problem. I feel sorrow when I can’t go do the things I really want to do and it hurts me to my very core.

Sometimes it’s only too easy to become weighted down with sorrow about my situation and yet I look around and I can see sorrow in the lives of almost everyone I know, just in a different form.

I see the sorrow of a mother whose child has been diagnosed with a learning disability
I see the sorrow of a child who has lost their parents too early
I see the sorrow of a couple that has discovered they no longer love each other
I see the sorrow of somebody who has given everything they had to achieve a dream only to have the dream shattered by circumstances outside their control
I see the sorrow of job loss and the fear that comes from unemployment
I see the sorrow of watching a loved one make poor decisions and being helpless to stop them
I see the sorrow of a parent whose child is diagnosed with a serious illness

Almost all of us carry sorrow in some shape or form. There are some lucky people who lived charmed and easy lives, but they are few and far in between. When I find myself sorrowful for what I have lost and when I get to the point where I am consumed by jealousy of others and what I perceive to be their easy life, I remind myself that a lot of sorrow is quiet and hidden. I’m not the only one dealing with a life different from what was expected, at some point everyone’s lives take a turn they didn’t expect to take.

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6 thoughts on “Sorrow is quiet and hidden

  1. Love this blog post. Very touching. My wife and I are learning to come to terms with her FM. Your words are close to how I have always dealt with issues in my life. It sounds terrible but I have found that no matter how terrible someone's situation may be there are always others in a worse situation which I find always brings a sense of perspective to ones life. As you say everyone has issues and many of them are kept hidden from view.

  2. Wow. Just… wow. It's all true, and I love your ruminations at the end. The last paragraph is really moving. I think it's important to recognize our own sorrow in order to recognize the sorrow of others.

  3. I think those of us with chronic illnesses get so tired, and we feel worse when we are overwhelmed. Strange how when I get sad about something, I will see someone else and realize how many blessing I have. Our hearts are opened up to see by our sorrows if we are willing to look; and so often, God can use us to comfort others. Funny I saw this after experiencing two very depressing days.

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