So this is what I did yesterday for a church function. I had help (the gorgeous cake balls for example are not mine) but I was the head honcho and did most of the baking and organizing. Today my legs area pretty sore from all the running around in heals (why I chose to wear heals when I knew I’d be on a feet for two hours is a mystery to me), but other than that and the state of my kitchen I’m doing well.
All of this made me realize that I’ve made a lot of progress since I first got sick. Part of it is that I’ve learned to function under a great deal of fatigue and pain (parenting with chronic illness doesn’t give you a choice). Another part of it is that I have seen some progress in improving my health. Though my pain level is still high, I have a lot more energy than I used to. I also recover faster when I overdo things than a few years ago. I think some of the lifestyle changes I’ve made (eating better, doing yoga for exercise, pacing myself, letting go of perfection etc.) are finally starting to pay off. I still have really bad days where I can hardly function and even bad months, but overall I am doing much better than I was at this time even last year. What a relief.