So often when I explain overwhelming fatigue as my main physical problem the response I get is “I get tired too, but you don’t hear me whining about it.” There are so many things to say about that statement.
A) I don’t whine (except for on my blog where I feel I am entitled to do it)
B) This is not normal fatigue
Normal fatigue has a cure, it’s called sleep, you know, the thing that normal people can do if they are tired. If only I were normal, I can’t tell you how many times I’ve been told I am a special case and no one has seen anything like me before. I’m really starting to hate the word” special”.
With chronic fatigue, fibromyalgia, etc the problem is that sleep doesn’t help much. I go to bed tired and I wake up tired, and that’s if my pain level doesn’t prevent me from sleeping. I can take enough sedatives to knock out a horse and I still won’t sleep. There are no words to describe how debilitating it is to be exhausted during your every waking hour. Pain I can handle because I can work through it, but when you have no energy there is nothing you can do about it. You can try to push through but more often then not your body will give in and you will be in more trouble then when you started. I pushed too hard this weekend and today my body is shaking uncontrollably from fatigue. It’s fun, let me tell you. Chronic fatigue doesn’t go away and that is not normal.