why didn't God heal me

Why didn’t God heal me

Warning- If you don’t like posts about faith and God, run away now. I rarely post about faith and  this won’t become a religious blog, but I felt like I needed to get this out today. 

I have a really hard time when I hear things like “because of your prayers I was healed” or “I couldn’t have been healed if it weren’t for all your prayers.” I believe in God and I believe that miracles can happen, but I do not believe that you are healed based on how many people are praying for you. A God who acted like that would be a real jerk and I don’t think he is. I don’t think God treats healing like it’s a popularity contest. There is a reason that miracles are called miracles, as in they don’t happen very often. The truth is that a lot of people get sick and a lot of people are not miraculously healed. I get frustrated though when someone has a close brush with illness and when things turn out well they credit all the people praying for them. As if we all had more people praying for us things would have turned out better.

Sometimes these thoughts leave me with the question, “why didn’t God heal me when he helped all those other people?” I have a lot of responsibilities and God really should have kept that in mind (note, this sentence contains some sarcasm because I hear this a lot from people who don’t think getting sick will ever happen to them). The truth is I do have lots of people praying for me, so what is the point if I’m not going to be  healed? Why do we tell people we will pray for them if it doesn’t do anything? I’ll be the first to admit that this is something I don’t fully understand and this is something I struggle with, but what it comes down to for me is this- not all healing is physical. We can be spiritually healed through faith, love, and prayer. I love this quote,

If all the sick for whom we pray were healed, if all the righteous were protected and the wicked destroyed, the whole program of  God would be annulled. … No man would have to live by faith. … There would be little or no suffering, sorrow, disappointment, or even death, and if these were not, there would also be no joy, success, resurrection, nor eternal life.
A lot of people will suggest that if you are not healed you are doing something wrong. You are probably sinning or you don’t have enough faith or you aren’t asking God the right way. In my opinion this is straight up BS. There is a lot of suffering in this world that isn’t anyone’s fault, bad things just happen sometimes. There are some things that we have to deal with in this life that will never be resolved. I have come to accept that chronic illness is my burden to carry and I will not be physically healed anytime soon, but I hold on using my spiritual strength. I have been given the strength to bear this burden. If I were doing this all on my own I would have given up a long time ago. I have learned that while I may not have health I have love, friendship, family and many other good things in my life and I try to choose to focus on that.
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2 thoughts on “Why didn’t God heal me

  1. I hate that too, when people insinuate that you must be doing something wrong to get suck or not get better! That just makes me crazy!! Life is full of the good and the bad and stuff happens! I loved your quote, which says a lot. I too have chosen to accept my chronic disease and try to focus on the wonderful people in my life! Have a Merry Christmas!

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